Hi!

I looked at myself in the bathroom mirror a couple weekends ago and said "I'm Kay." That is my oldest sister and the resemblence I saw on that day was just amazing. Sometimes I look in the mirror and see my mother staring back at me.

I generally don't even look in the mirror to be honest with you. I get out of the shower in the morning, brush my hair while looking in the mirror, but then walk out of the bathroom. Our bathrooms at work are set up strangely, it's divided into three sections, a bathroom stall section, futher along from that is a sink section, and further along from that is the mirror section. There is a door to enter & exit at each end. My desk is on the side of the sink section, so I go by it when I go in and again when I go out but don't usually look to the side as I go by. This is Not something new for me, I've never been one to spend time looking at myself.

I tried Fare For All last night. It is a bulk buying organization that sells grocery packages at a discount. I ended up with a frozen package of Asian Orange Chicken, a Hormel package of meat (can't remember what type) in Enchilada sauce, ham lunchmeat, and frozen fish. I also got 5 lbs or potatoes, a head of cabbage (what am I going to do with that???,) a head of cauliflower, 1 lb of carrots, 2 green peppers, 5 apples and a couple carrots. We were also able to pick three bread products, I picked a loaf of wheat bread, a loaf of Asiago/Cracked Pepper bread and Chocolate Chip Scones, all for $17.00, what a bargain.

Another day

I spent some time yesterday googling 50, turning 50, etc. and found some other blogs by folks who had turned 50 and wanted to communicate about it. (Paged through for quite a while, but my blog never popped up!) There were many references to "bucket lists" maybe that's something I'll have to think about . . .

I felt like I spent a bit too much "work" time yesterday starting this blog and told myself I'd work harder and stay more focused today . . . this is a bit more personally rewarding though. lol

Any who . . . I was thinking about death, since I found a site (www.livingto100.com) that will help you calculate your life expectency (mine is currently 80!) I used to be terrified of dying, what will happen? who'll take care of my kids? how will the world go on without me? etc. But since joining AlAnon and NarAnon and attending church more regularly, I'm no longer scared. I firmly believe death brings peace and a reunion with God. Personally, I kinda look forward to it, I'm trying to live to the best of my ability, but I've also been pretty stressed the past 2-3 years so I'll be ready for a rest.

Have a good day.

3 days ago I turned 50!

Ok, so 3 days ago I turned 50. No big deal really, there are millions of people who have accomplished this before me, but it seems like something I should take note of or it should be special in some way.

I took the day off of work, I wanted to spend the day lying around in bed, watching whatever I felt like it on day time tv. I work a full-time Monday-Friday job, a weekend job, have family that I want to spend time with on my one day off every 2 weeks, so I don't seem to get the chance to just do NOTHING that often. Worked out pretty well until about 2:30 in the afternoon, then "life" again reared it's ugly head and I had to get off the island (what my bed has become to me).

So, 50 . . . my life is roughly 60% over, yikes! I had hoped to have my life "in order" by now. One of my sisters asked what "in order" means, to me it means having advance pay day loans paid off (hence 2 jobs). It didn't happen, but I have high hopes that it will by the end of 2010. Something to hope, strive, work towards!

I still have high hopes for myself, maybe some college courses before the other 40% goes by, some traveling perhaps, maybe a savings account! Any suggestions?